It has been nearly a month since I have updated this thing. I just wanted to be like. Wow. Ok being 21 has its ups and downs. And everything that I have expeierenced has not been the same from when I wasn't. Men are different. I feel like a old man. I also dislocated my knee on my birthday, which is still hurting because i think i dislocated it in my sleep like a week later or even two weeks later. I wish I knew what happened that night. But like always I have been blacking out. So now that I am of age. Things have changed in so many ways. Jessica looks at me like a fucking bitch that she just wants to use me for and when I don't she just gets upset that she doesn't get to that night because I am able to buy the beer and what not for everyone. But not just that. I need a job and everywhere that I have been looking has been nothing but a dead end. I need a job a apartment and a life. I want to have a husband and everthing back to normal again. I don't think this is possible anymore. I want to die. But anyway. Before all of that. I found a new man. His name is Andrew Johnson. Well. He is everything I have ever wanted in a man. He is so perfect that I feel like I am unable to please him in bed and that I should be and or something that I am not. I want to be his perfect everything but it is so hard to be what he wants because he sees everyone out here (west hollywood) as a sexy piece of ass. Tonight we went to a comedy thing and like everything went fine. I am a lil tipsy and everytyhing but like he told me that he was going to cut my head off a picture and paste it onto another picture of a man that was sexy as fuck. Wouldn't that hurt anyone in the first place i mean wtf. Like seriously. And after that he is talking about going and seeing his parents then going to mexico and having some craxy ass fun. asp. Without me. I mean who the fuck goes and says all this crazy ass shit and then thinks that he is the inisint one. Like seriously. What in the world is going on. Wow now he just said we watched limitless with me in the living room. First off. not me. And he wants to watch gnomeo and juliet. Well fuck that was the last movie Aaaron and I soll together. How sad would that be. So I am being this super bitch and just wanting to goto bed, because well I still love my husband and i want to be happy like that. Wow you know whats playing while i type this?!?!?! Enchanted happily ever after.
PEACE!!!!
ily Kenners.
I hope I make it another week....
