Saturday, March 23, 2013

I'm gone

I attempted to kill myself today. I passed out but ended up waking up. I can't take my life anymore. I have nothing, I am nothing, I have no one, I am in constant pain, I can't find anywhere that I belong, I can't find positive friends, I can't get a man to stay with me, I can't stop loving people, I'm lonely, people want to use me, I have no one to talk to, I use chat rooms just to talk to anyone, I dont fit into society anymore. I need to find something that I can just fall asleep forever. I need a poisoned apple. Please god. Please take my life away. I don't need it anymore. I don't have a place in this world. I don't even have a place to live. What kind of person am I? Am I even a person. I need help. I need someone to smile at me. I need someone to love me. Please someone love me. Please someone take me in their arms. Please someone just look at me. I need you. I need you to look in my eyes and hold me. Cradle me. I'm so lost. What has my life become? I beg for him to love me everyday. I miss you. You made me feel like I mattered in this world. Please. Please do it again. I need you. I don't even have family. I have no one. Blogger and Twitter are the only things I have.

I need you someone.

Friday, March 1, 2013

March?!??

Wow so much has been going on in ny life lately. Since I am back in California living with my brother.

To be continued... Something came up