December 2013?!?!

How the hell did I end up at the end of the year already. I still don't see how this happened so quick. I just can't understand time right now. I am in South Utah right now working full time at walmart and it is fun. I love my workers and employees. I have a good time. I am always just so busy that my life is work and sleep now. I have yet to do anything worth my time other now that i have my own car. Which I am scared it needs new tires already. THis is kinda of a step back but i need to save up for it now. I make a lot of money which it all just goes to bills. ick. I feel like i should be making a lot more for how much I am working and how hard I work. I need a vacation and I need a man to love me. THis will be the first year that I will not be celebrating Christmas... THis really sucks. The first year without a tree and the first year without family. It is rough. But I will not pout. I didn't get anything for christmas this year so I went and bought this laptop I am on for myself. WHich i needed and it has made me somewhat happy. You can't live these days without some kind of computer and I have been doing it for a few months since all my crap is ni my moms storage. Ick. I just want so badly for a man to love me and not just that cheap simple love I want him to look at me and want me as bad as I want him. It has been awhile that anyone has felt like that. NOw that I think about jared and aaron just about all day now because I have no life other then work and work and more work. I even have to get a third job now just to be able to buy crap I want. WHich I will sacrifice more of my life just so I can buy clothes to enternally be happy. WEll for now I am off to bed but it was nice to try to catch up on here a lil. I should come back and try to do my blog every more once in awhile. I am planning another chemical peel after christmas so I will be doing a real day by day to show the results. Unlike my bail a few months back <3 Kenners